My Testimony: From Trauma to Triumph

First and foremost, I want to thank you for being here. Even if you are just browsing, or simply curious, I want to thank you for holding this space with me. I wanted to share a part of my story so that you may understand how I got here and why I believe in this integrative approach to healing.

Trauma was something I learned at a very young age. Even before I was able to conceptualize or put words to experiences, I knew loss and pain and grief. Although I did not understand fully at the time, my worldview, self-perception and belief system were all being shaped by things I never should have been exposed to. With an ACE score (Adverse Childhood Experiences) of 9, these early life experiences left deep scars, leading me down a path of addiction, emotional turmoil and an inner compulsion to seek what was familiar.

Being a young mother at 18, I did the best I could to survive, to provide a nourishing life for my children and to ensure they would always be protected and loved. However, the shame continued to be an integral part of my being, the past haunted me and reality of the past continuously weighed me down. I often engaged in disassociation, escapism and negative coping skills to run from the mental anguish of unhealed wounds. Wounds bleeding beneath the surface of bandaids that never stayed in place.

We all reach a breaking point.

I was forced into the realization that I was not as healed as I thought and I did not have everything together, in spite of my career or education. I was suffering. And in order to be better and to become the best version of myself for my children's sake, I had to face everything I'd been running from for years.

I entered into therapy and began a two year journey. Through screams and tears I began to unpack, unlearn, confront and face everything I had been avoiding. I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD and did all the things- EMDR, CBT, DBT IFS, and narrative therapy. All helpful in managing my symptoms, regulating my emotions, challenging my thought patterns. But I still couldn't help but feel bound to the shame that had been with me all my life and I resolved that perhaps it was just my burden to bear.

During this season of healing, I began to draw closer to Christ as I was able to recognize how much He had saved me from through His provision. One day, deep in prayer, I had a profound and deeply transformative experience with Christ. He allowed me to see my life through His eyes, in which I felt a pouring out of His love and compassion over me which broke the chains of shame that held me bound and set me free. I truly believe God did what therapy alone could not—He healed my soul and restored my identity as His daughter.

This transformation ignited a passion within me to help others find the same healing. I know just how dark and hopeless trauma can leave us but I also know that healing is possible. And while I do believe that therapy is extremely beneficial and often necessary; true and lasting freedom comes through the ultimate Healer.

I am a survivor. A survivor of child abuse, sexual assault, and domestic violence. I've battled mental health issues, substance abuse and various addictions as a means to cope; but by the grace of God I am free. I believe you can be too and I would be honored to walk this journey with you, if you so choose.

God loves you, desires a relationship with you and wants to heal you. We were never meant to face these atrocities but He can make beauty from ashes and help you turn your pain into a greater purpose. You only need to be willing to fully trust in Him. If you need guidance, feel free to reach out and enroll of any of the services I offer or access any of the free content I may post. Remember though, nothing replaces the Word of God and the time spent in intimacy with Him through prayer and fasting.

Thank you for reading, prayers are welcomed and God bless you.

"II Corinthians 5:17- Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold all things have become new."